I Will Remember...

A post for my son...

I promise you that I will remember the first time that I saw you. I promise that I will remember the first time that I held you, that I watched your daddy hold you, the look in my mom's eyes as she watched me holding you for the first time.


I promise you that I will never forget how you knew exactly what to do when I nursed you for the first time. I will always remember that you taught me how to do it.

I promise you that I will remember how hard the first few weeks were, how tired I was, how my recovery was difficult. I promise that I will remember how much I loved you through this time.

I promise you that I will remember the first time that you smiled. I'll never forget standing over you and taking pictures as fast as I could, so that no one would be able to forget that moment.

I promise you that I will remember the first day that I left you at daycare. I promise that I will always remember how lonely I was. I promise that I will remember the first time day care called and asked if they could give you formula. I will remember how I felt that I had failed you.

I promise you that I will remember the first time I fed you cereal, the first time you splashed me in the bath, the first time you pulled off my glasses, daddy's hat. I will remember the first time you sat up, rolled over, crawled, reached for me, stood up; said dada and mama - and then proceded to call the dog dada or mama and never me and daddy.


I promise you that I will remember how you smile at me when I pick you up after your nap. I will remember how loudly you cried for me in the middle of the night and I will remember all the time that we spent together in your room - just you and me; when it felt like the rest of the world was asleep, we were awake together, just you and me.


I promise you that I will remember every moment with you as long as I can. And I promise you that I will always love you as much as any mom can love a son as wonderful and beautiful as you.

Wordless Wednesday